this time, you've gone too far

I have been lacking as of late in my blogging duties, on all of my blogs. Even Myspace, my regular haunt, has been fairly empty. I wrote a ticked-off one liner earlier today, but that was it. I do apologize, things here have been very....let's just say....stressful.

I'm realizing more and more what I'm putting up with is not something I ever wanted for myself. I'm settling, in a lot of aspects of my life, and it's time I step up and do something about that. I want to be respected and treated well, and I will no longer stand for anything less.

Chaos has been reigning supreme recently. We've been doing a lot of housecleaning, Chad especially since he's not working. He spent five hours (!) cleaning the bedroom the other day (how sad is it that it TOOK five hours to clean?), and it came out spotless. Closet and everything I'm impressed. I didn't fully realize how a messy environment made me feel until tonight, when I walked in from the other room. It hit me like a brick as soon as I walked in, a sense of peace. When it's messy, I feel, at the very least, stressed.

My heart is aching lately for a friend of mine and her troubles. All I can say at this time is I feel her pain, and I think I can empathize. I've been considering her decision as well more and more lately, sadly. It breaks my heart that she's going through such a hard time.

So school's not happening this semester. I'm really angry about it - I HAD to follow the plan, or I didn't have a prayer of getting into the program fall of 2008. Now I'll have to wait until fall of 2009 at the earliest - no way! Not doing it. I'm almost 23 years old and still don't have a degree? No frickin' way. I'm not working for X.XX an hour, UNDER the poverty line, until I'm 27 years old. Not to mention that puts off having kids even longer. So I think I'll be changing my major. Photojournalism and web design are top choices right now. I know, I know. web design, and I've got a generic template on my Blogger? Well, that's what SCHOOL's for! :)

Alright, I'm done. I might do the Friday's Feast later (late, I know) but right now I'm not in the mood. Hope you're doing well, readers! (If there are any....-sniff-)....

-shrug-

I'm out of ideas for a subject line.

I registered for school today, for the spring semester. I'm taking ENG111 - Expository Writing, ACA111 - College Student Success (only because it's required, I'm annoyed that I have to pay for this worthless class), PSY150 - General Psychology (repeat from Indiana, but I'm not wasting time with the transfer paperwork when I didn't get an A in the class, I'll just repeat it), DRA122 - Oral Interpretation (course description: "introduces the dramatistic study of literature through performance. Emphasis is placed on analysis and performance of poetry, drama, and prose fiction". Translation: CHA-CHING.) and, sadly, MAT070 - Introductory Algebra. I'm so bad at math, it's just not my thing. That and chemistry. They were both my downfalls in high school.

This summer, I'll take my Anatomy and Physiology course, then in the fall I'll take Bio, Chem, MAT080, and any other classes left. I might take the math class during the summer too, considering that's quite the course load for me - everything I'm bad at in one semester.

I skipped Mary Kay training tonight; the weather was atrocious. I'll go next Toesday. I spent the evening with Chad at his parents' house; Dad made his famous chili, and Mom and I watched both episodes of Gilmore Girls. I love nights like these...even though Chad and I came home, and we're promptly fighting again.

Thanksgiving is Thursday, and I'm so relieved. We're spending the night at the 'rents house tomorrow night, Mom's coming to get me in the morning and we're going shopping fo groceries. That reminds me, I need to turn the ringer back on, Anna's calling me in the morning too (my Senior National Sales Director for MK).

I've had a bad day, so I'm out - but I wanted to remember what I did today.
'night all...

mine immaculate dream, made breath and skin

Hmmm....what to write, what to write. Good news to start with: my new car came home yesterday. She's lovely, I'll post pictures as soon as I get 'em done.

Chad and I have decided that when we build our own house, we're going to have a darkroom for developing all the pictures we take. You should hear all the ideas we've got...put 2 artistic people together in a marriage, it's one chaotic, beautiful mess.

I've been cleaning my little heart out today. The bedroom is getting all prettified. It's been dusted, all the laundry's being done, I've picked up all the mess on the floor, straightened the tables and their contents, made the bed, installed the new flat screen computer monitor and took out the old one, and organized all these insane cords running around my desk. This room is a fire hazard.

I've been going through a bunch of my old CDs today, and it's amazing what I've missed. Good stuff, especially the random mix CDs my best friend Libby made me back in Indiana. Those bring back so many zillions of memories. Then there's the CDs that my ex-friend S made me, lots of Christian rock mixed with some Limp Bizkit and Nirvana. Haha. He had eclectic taste, just like me.

I totally skipped my first Thursday Thirteen last week, whoops!

Alright, off to go work on my sad little mess of a "blanket" I'm knitting. Oy vey. :)

you're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry

Mmmm....the house smells of cherry pie. I've been baking it for Chad, and it just came out of the oven. I know, baking this late? But he was craving it, and thus, I happily obliged! As long as I get a piece, I'm happy. We need vanilla bean ice cream to put over it, though - forgot that part.

So apparently, the car we're buying from his aunt and uncle is coming home tomorrow evening. I can't tell you how happy this makes me! Although, this now means I have to get a job, ha ha. I can't be a lazy bum/SAHW anymore. I was kind of getting used to the routine of chores, napping, knitting, and blogging. :)

Chad's car will be fixed, hopefully, in the next couple of weeks. Then finally we can have two working cars again, please Lord. All I want for Christmas is two working vehicles and two steady sources of income, happily obtained. Meaning, I would like a job that I won't despise like all my others. What on earth does one do for a living while in college that doesn't involve retail crap jobs or "Would you like fries with that?"

Looks like I'll be scouring the newspaper for the next couple of weeks. Maybe I should just open up the Mary Kay business I've been wanting to do for the past couple of years. Now's a good a time as any, I suppose, especially since now I'll have the startup money.

Is anyone else absolutely LOVING this fall weather?